"Tomorrow will be the only normal day we'll have this week"

                                                                                                                         Sunday, October 21, 1990             

     Last week was mostly uneventful.  I had tried the previous week taking Chief out in the back yard on his leash, trying to teach him to sit.  It went ok for a very short time - til he realized I had a pocket full of treats.  Then he just kept jumping on me trying to get those.  I tried it inside the house one day with the same results.  Then I tried it another day without the treats but he still thought I had them.  So I've decided he needs to have real obedience lessons.  I told Guy that but I don't think he took me seriously.  If he doesn't want to pay for it I'll take the money from my own savings.  But I think we'll wait til after he gets fixed.  He'll be old enough next month.  I asked about it when I went to get his refills Friday.  They said he wouldn't need any exam beforehand.  Just call & let them know when we wanted it done.  We'd bring him in on a Tues., Wed., or Thu. afternoon and he'd have to stay two nights.  I told Guy I hate to think of Chief being there all alone & so scared cause he wouldn't know or understand what's going on.  As much as I hate him sometimes, I can't bear to think of him being hurt or all alone like that.  It makes me cry.  But I know it has to be done. 

     Meanwhile, I think the nausea is gone but sometimes I still don't have much of an appetite.  I gained one lb. last week but lost one yesterday.  We see what my official weight is at the OB's tomorrow.

     Either Tues. or Wed. I was laying on the couch watching TV in the aft. & started seeing spots.  When I'd look at something there was a blank spot just to the right of center.  It lasted about an hour & I had a slight headache afterwards.  That's happened before but not for awhile and it wouldn't bother me now if it weren't for the fact I'm pregnant and that for the past two weeks (at least) my eyes have been kind of bloodshot, especially one place on my left eye.  But it didn't really worry me til it happened again on Fri.  It was different this time.  It started while I was at the vet's getting Chief's refills.  I thought maybe it was from the sun reflecting off another car or something but it was worse by the time I got home.  It didn't affect my driving thank goodness.  I could see it when I closed my eyes, like you see spots from a camera flash, but only in the left eyelid.  And this time it had a specific shape.  With the dot representing the point I'm looking at, it looked like this: (she drew a little picture in) curved with one end raggedy.  I laid down til Guy got home and it was better by then.  But it kind of came & went the rest of the night.  It didn't bother me too much when we went out to eat.  Guy said he wanted seafood but neither of us wanted to cook so we went to Red Lobster.  It was very good!  I ate more than I have in awhile but by the time we got home I felt stuffed.  But it was good!  And I still had enough left for both of our suppers last night. 

     Lori called last night.  We'd scheduled this time for her to call if she didn't hear from me by then, just to check & see how I was doing.  I was worried about her too.  She'd told me she'd felt a lump in the side of her breast.  The dr. told her to try cutting out caffeine to see if it would go down.  She's done that for 3 wks. and it hasn't made any difference so she'll be calling him back tomorrow to see what he wants to do next.  I hope it's not bad.
     My OB appt. is tomorrow morning.  When I made the appt. I told them I didn't care what time because I really didn't think I'd make it til then.  But I have and now I have to be there at 10:10 in the morning.  Oh well, I do have a list of things to discuss with him, especially my eyes.
     I didn't go to church today at all.  Deanna had called Tues. to tell us that the fumes from the glue they're using to install the carpeting in the classrooms was overpowering.  Friday she said it was still pretty bad.  So Guy said for me to stay home this morning & he'd see how it was.  He said it wasn't too bad in the auditorium cause they had the fans going but everywhere else was awful.  So he didn't let me go tonight either.
     This coming week will be rough.  He has a security duty exercise from midnight Tues. til noon Fri. He'll be home from noon-8 pm each day but I don't like the idea of being home alone overnight.  Then he has duty on Sat. & Sun.  He's not supposed to have any watches but he'll probably have to work til noon both days.  So tomorrow will be the only normal day we'll have this week. 

"I'm not sure if I'm ready to relax yet"

Mon. Oct. 15, 1990

     Well, Friday was 12 weeks so we're past the point where we lost the first baby.  I'm not sure if I'm ready to relax yet though.  Sometimes I feel like I'm starting to feel better.  There are even moments when I feel like my normal, non-pregnant self.  Mainly when I don't feel nauseous or exhausted.  The nausea is better but it still seems like I can't eat a whole lot without feeling stuffed.  My weight was back up to 107 Sat. so that's good.  Like I was telling Guy when he called at lunch today, I don't feel real tired like I have been but I don't feel like I've got a lot of energy either.  I thought about trying to take over the cooking again but haven't tried it yet.  I'm starting to feel guilty about not doing any housework.  I cleaned off the dining table & coffee table today, kind of.  I feel like I ought to do more sometimes but I'm just so afraid of overdoing it.  Maybe in the next few weeks I'll start to get some energy back.  My next OB appt. is a week from today.
     Becky Kinder called last night.  She's been in the hospital again, for her sinuses this time.  She said they've been having to remove mucous plugs from them about every 3 months and now they're talking about doing surgery to fill them with fat or muscle tissue to prevent the mucous from forming.  She said that they'd have to expose grey matter to do it so she's not sure if she will.  She also may need to have gall bladder surgery but she wants to wait til Dr. Lazarus gets back for that.  She said Dr. L is supposed to be gone for 6 mos. & Dr. Calloway is the best to see while she's gone.  He's the one I've talked to on the phone.  Six mos. means Dr. L will be gone til March.  I sure wish she was gone any other time except while I'm pregnant.

"I just want to get through next week"

Thursday, Oct. 4, 1990

     I'm almost 11 weeks now & it's making me really nervous.  The nausea has started getting better but I still don't feel like eating a big meal.  I lost 3 more lbs last week.  Guy's still cooking.  I think that's helped more than anything, not having to smell what's cooking.
   One thing I don't quite understand - even though I just don't have any energy, it doesn't seem like I'm getting as much sleep as the last time.  Part of it is Chief waking me up after Guy leaves.  It's worse some mornings than others.  But last time I was always ready to go to sleep at 10:00 with Guy instead of staying up til 11:00.  Now, it's only like that every once in awhile.  And I used to sleep from 2:00 in the afternoon til Guy got home at 4:30-5:00.  But even though I usually don't come upstairs til after my story, I hardly ever go right to sleep.  Sometimes I'll sleep for maybe an hour.  Sometimes not at all.  Even when I don't sleep, it's nice to be able to relax away from Chief.  Sometimes he protests for a little while & sometimes I don't hear a peep.  It's getting harder to play with him though.  Besides him getting stronger, he's always bumping or stepping or just plopping down on my stomach.  Besides all the scratching he does. (We're planning to get some clippers fro him this weekend.)
     Guy got upset at me one day.  I don't remember when or even why.  But he said something to the effect that he's here to support me but he doesn't feel like he can with me being so picky about everything.  It may have been something I said about him cleaning.  I told him that I was sorry if I was doing that and that I do need his support and for him to please understand the way I act is probably because I'm so scared and nervous about making it past 11 & 1/2 weeks.  And the closer it gets, the more scared & nervous I get.  And I guess I just don't know how to deal with it.  I want to be close to Guy but I feel like there's some kind of barrier between us.  We don't talk about the baby as much as we did the first one.  And after what happened then, I thought he'd really pamper me this time.  He said all I need to do is laundry & cooking.  He's taken on the cooking so that leaves the laundry.  And to me that's one of the most strenuous things to do - having to pick up a basket full of clothes, having to twist & turn to put them from the washer to the dryer, even just bending down over & over to put them in the washer to start with.
     I know he's tired when he gets home from work but the housework still needs to be done & he just doesn't make the time to do it all enough.  Once it was 2 weeks between cleaning our bathroom.  He did change the towels but the mold in the sink was really starting to get to me.  And even with this air filter, it seems to get dusty so quickly in our room.  But he has dusted more in here than he has downstairs.  I'm just scared to say anything else to him about cleaning so I don't get him upset.
     I just want to get through next week.  If we make it past 11 1/2 weeks, maybe I can start relaxing a little & not be so tense or picky about things, & we can enjoy the pregnancy.

"I just wait for the time to come when the trouble will start again."

Thursday, Sept. 27, 1990

     Guy went with me to see the obstetrician Mon. aft.  His name is Dr. Rand.  He said he'd be my primary doctor but I'd see the others at least once.  They took blood & urine for tests and he did an exam.  I had to fill out all sorts of papers.  He said for me to call the pulmonary clinic if I had any CF problems and they can check with him if they have any questions.  He said they'd probably do a series of ultrasounds throughout the pregnancy to be sure the baby is growing enought because of the nourishment part of my CF.  Guy said something about Champus not paying unless its medically needed & documented.  He said if Champus says they won't pay for so many ultrasounds they'd (drs.) just write them off cause he felt we needed to keep a close eye on the baby's development.  That surprised me & impressed Guy.  He gave me a prescription for Tigan to take when the nausea gets so bad that I can't eat.  I haven't used it yet.  I probably will need it this weekend, seems like that's when it's worst.  We also got a prescription for pre-natal vitamins.  We took it to Boone & Guy picked them up after work the next day.  We got the Tigan at the Revco next to the medical bldg.  I asked Carole about the Tigan & she said it worked for her but it knocked her out for 3-4 hours whenever she took it.  The paper with it had said it could cause drowsiness.
     Dr. Rand said I should come back in a month but to call him if I have any problems before then.  We made an appointment, I think it's Oct. 22.  When she asked if I wanted morning or aft. I said 'it doesn't matter.'  Guy said he thought I'd want aft. since I'm not a morning person.  I think in the back of my mind I was thinking that it doesn't matter when the appt. is because I won't make it to that point anyway.  But I didn't say that.
     Guy & I don't really talk about this pregnancy like we did with the last one.  It's certainly not how I had pictured a second pregnancy.  I thought we'd said after the last one that next time I'd stay in bed from day one.  And it hasn't happened that way at all.  First Janice & Tim came to visit & we were constantly going til I said I had to stay home that last day.  Then I had VBS.  And on top of everything, having to take care of Chief.  Sometimes I think that if I lose this baby it'll be because of him.  I can't stay in bed all I want cause I have to let him out and keep him company for awhile.  He has been letting me sleep later since Guy started feeding him before he goes to work.  But when I'm playing with him in the floor he'll jump on my stomach.  Not that he didn't before.  But it worries me now.  And night before last he scared me so bad I was shaking for a half hour or more.  I was laying on the couch and Guy was in the floor with Chief.  He started zooming around like he usually does and when he came between the couch & piano & end table he started howling & yapping like he was hurt.  My first thought was that somehow the lamp cord was electrocuting him.  I jumped up to see what was going on & the end table was falling over on Guy & Chief.  Guy was trying to get to Chief and then the light went out & I couldn't see & Chief was still howling I was screaming 'what's going on - what happened!?' etc.  I did think to go turn the hall light on & by then Chief was running down the hall to go to his room.  He wet on the floor just outside of it & I figured he'd been peeing all the way down the hall but the place in the kitchen was all we found.  Guy said he'd been trying to pull Chief but he couldn't tell what was wrong but that he wasn't being electrocuted because he would've felt it when he had ahold of his leg if he had been.  The plug had been pulled out of the wall when the table fell is why the light went out.  Guy checked all the cords & it doesn't have a short in it.  That's surprising since that's the 3rd time it's been knocked over lately.  Once by Amy & twice by Chief.  The first time he knocked it over was by jumping up at Guy on the couch, somehow.  Anyway, we were picking up all the stuff off the floor & I was still shaking and my heart was pounding.  Chief finally came back out there but he didn't get too close to the table.  We put that old coffee table top down to where he couldn't go between that space anymore.  Yesterday he kind of sat & looked at it from the dining room side for a minute or two.  But he hasn't tried to go through it again.  Usually when he'd do it is when he & Guy were playing chase and they haven't done that since then.  I'd mentioned one time that we'd have to figure out what to do if he got too big to go through there but still tried to.  The only thing we can figured happened is Guy said he must have gotten a claw caught on the tablecloth & didn't know how to get loose, so he went crazy.  But there wasn't any torn or caught threads that we could find.  He could've gotten his paw or leg hung in the cord where it was hanging down.  We just don't know.  But hopefully he won't be doing that any more.
     Meanwhile, we had our Empty Arms meeting Mon. night.  We went a little early so we could talk to Ann about telling everyone we're expecting.  She said to wait & see who all came & if anyone new was there we'd probably need to wait til the end.  There was a new couple there (engaged) so we didn't say anything when we introduced ourselves.  In the middle of the meeting Cathy Rudolph said she thought we should discuss how everyone would feel about someone still coming to the group if they got pregnant again.  She said she was starting to think about trying again & she knew we were trying again.  I was sure she knew.  I figured Molly had mentioned it in a letter to her.  Other people started talking and I looked at Guy and at Ann.  She started wiggling her eyebrows & smiling and I started getting nervous about saying anything.  Most everyone was saying that they thought it would be ok because that wouldn't change the fact that they'd already lost a baby.  And Kim said she thought that someone getting pregnant would give her hope that she would again too.  When everyone stopped talking for a minute I whispered to Guy that I was too chicken & for him to say it.  So he said 'since you brought the subject up...Ellen's pregnant.'  I heard a lot of gasps & oh's but the only one I saw their direct reaction was Bridgette.  She said 'oh!' & put her hands to her mouth & smiled.  Kim said 'you sneak' or something like that and 'I asked you last time & you didn't say anything!'  Everyone said congratulations & good luck.  We only talked about it a couple of minutes before moving on to something else.  It was kind of a relief to let everyone know.  But it still felt a little funny to be the only one there in this situation.  I'm not sure how the new couple felt about it but they did talk a lot later about their situation.  Guy said we didn't want to upset anyone by still coming while we're pregnant but nobody said they were upset.  I plan to ask Ann before the next meeting if anyone's said to her since then that it did or would bother or upset them for us to be there.  I think it would help me to still go at least til we make it past the point of the last time.  If everything's going ok after that I think it would be upsetting to me to go & listen to everyone talking about their losses.  I haven't mentioned it to Guy so I don't know how he feels about it.  I'm not really thinking too far ahead though.  I just wait for the time to come when the trouble will start again.

"I'm afraid people are going to start suspecting...I'm pregnant..."

Sunday, Sept. 23, 1990

     I didn't get to sleep late Friday because I had to be up for the termite man to come.  They said he'd be here sometime between 8-noon.  I got up at 7 I think.  But I had already gotten up & eaten with Guy.  I made the cake for the Singles Fellowship & cleaned house a little then rested.  Guy got home around 10:30.  We called to find out about the movies & none of them started til 2:00.  So I worked on my stuff for Young Light.  I thought Guy would finish cleaning but he waited til we got back.  We saw Presumed Innocent.  It was pretty good but I got a little confused sometimes.
     We had to fix the vegetables & finish the cake when we got back.  Guy fixed me a hot dog while I took a quick shower.  Then he took a shower while I was eating.  We had everything ready by the time people started arriving.  There were about 10 Singles here.  Linda Pugh had planned to come but had told Mary to let us know she wouldn't be here.  Mark had just informed her that the speaker for the men's retreat was going to be spending the night with them Sat. & she needed to clean house.  Plus being tired from teaching all week (her 3rd week).  Everyone enjoyed themselves I think.  Susan Richardson had sent the tape of the A.F. Dinner & that was fun to watch.  They all left by 10:30, which surprised me.
     I took it easy yesterday, letting Guy go to the grocery store without me.  I stayed in bed a lot of the time.  First I read the paper then took a nap.  I had intended (& had asked Guy) to have a devotional at 3:00, when they'd be having Vivian's funeral.  But I was asleep & Guy didn't wake me up til 4:00.  He has mentioned it in our prayers since we found out though.
     Daddy called last night to tell me about it.  I figured he would eventually.  I didn't think he'd realize who she was, that she was a friend of mine, but I figured Linda Thompson (preacher's wife) would say something to him cause she worked with her & knew we were friends.
     He did surprise me when he said he was thinking about coming to see us.  I've always wished he could come out here but now that he says he might, I'm afraid for him to.  He'd have to change planes and I'm scared he'd get lost at the airport, especially if it's Atlanta.  He said he was going to check the rates but he'd leave it up to us when to come so he wouldn't interfere with our schedule.  I don't know, it's a little hard to picture him actually coming out here.  Maybe if Judy could come with him I'd feel better.  But she probably couldn't afford it.  I'll mention it to her in the next letter.
     I've been tired all day today.  It started with Chief waking us up at 5:00.  Guy let him out & he pooped.  Not too long after, he started yapping.  Guy went down & found the problem, he'd wet in his room.  So he cleaned it up & put him back in.  He was quiet then but I don't think either of us got back to sleep.  He started whining while Guy was in the shower.  So I was plenty ready for a nap this afternoon.
     In fact, I was ready during class this morning.  I'm afraid people are going to start suspecting cause I'm doing the things I did last time I was pregnant: leaning my head on Guy's shoulder, drinking juice during church, & sitting down in the middle of songs.  Guy said Deanna asked him this morning if he was doing more cooking now.  I said 'what made her ask that?' & he said she probably thinks I'm sick.  She was sitting right behind us in class this morning.  It still seems stranged to me that she asked.
     I slept a little fitfully this aft.  I think I was coughing a lot.  When I got up it felt like I couldn't catch my breath enough.  Guy said I should stay home tonight & I didn't argue.  I've stayed upstairs cross-stitching most of the time til my tailbone got numb & I decided to write some.  Guy should be home within the next half hour.
     I forgot to mention how Chief did Fri. night.  We planned to leave him in his cage the whole time but he put up such a fuss Guy put him outside.  That wasn't any better & I couldn't stand it so I told Guy I'd hold him in my lap the whole time.  We ended up taking turns holding him & he did ok for awhile.  Then he started getting restless.  But instead of being scared of everyone this time, he wanted to check everyone out.  No one seemed to object so we let him go around while Guy was making announcements.  When we started putting the food out I thought Guy was watching him & I guess he thought I was.  Deanna came & said Chief peed on her foot.  So Guy took him outside and got Deanna a rag to wash her foot.  He went in his cage after that & did ok for awhile, while we were watching the tape.  He slept for a little bit I think.  But eventually Guy took him outside & let him stay out of his room after that.  So except for getting Deanna he did pretty good.  At least it was better than last time

"I hope that guy gets the book thrown at him."

Thursday, Sept. 20, 1990

     Nancy called me this morning.  I was surprised to hear from her & figured she was calling to tell me she's pregnant.  But she said she had bad news.  She said Vivian (Hay) Totty had been in a car accident last week & died yesterday morning.  She & Sandra were on their way home from Searcy and had crossed over the White River Bridge.  They were on the curve near the grain bins when a driver came over in their lane.  She said at first everyone thought he was trying to pass another car going that way but the driver of that car said it looked like he was leaning over & not paying attention.  But then he apparently saw he was on the wrong side and tried to go on across to the other shoulder to get out of the way.  But he hit not straight head-on, but head-on on the right (passenger) side.  Nancy said she didn't know what kind of car they'd had but the guy was in a pickup.  Maybe the worst part of all is that Sandra was driving.  I had just gotten a letter from Vivian a couple of weeks ago & she said Sandra was going into the 9th grade.  So she's probably 15 & has had her learner's permit for a year or so.  Her legs were hurt but not broken.  They both had on their seatbelts but it apparently didn't help Vivian.  I can't remember what all Nancy said was broken but the worst thing was her head injury.  They had to pry the vehicles apart and cut to get Vivian out.  She was in the hospital at Searcy for a day.  When her brain began to swell they took her to LR.  They were able to drain fluid but it kept swelling or swelled again.  She was in a coma the whole time & never woke up.  I don't know if she died on her own or they disconnected her from machines.  But she apparently never really had a chance. 
     Nancy heard that the guy is from Bald Knob, is either 17 or 19, and has been arrested more than once for drunk driving.  She wasn't sure if he was drunk this time.  I guess he's ok cause she didn't mention him having to go to the hospital.
     Sandra is going to have a really hard time with this I'm sure.  Nancy sai she'd heard that she said maybe if Vivian was driving they wouldn't have had the accident.  But who knows.  They could've both died.  Whenever something like this happens you always wonder 'what if' and ask 'why'?  Just like when we lost the baby.  And it's so frustrating to have no answers. 
     I sent Vivian a birthday card in July for the first time in years.  We hadn't written to each other for a long, long time but had started again since this past xmas.  It makes you wonder about how come all of a sudden we decide to do certain things.  I just know I'm glad that we had begun writing again and especially glad I sent her that BD card.
     I called Guy at his class to tell him & he said we'd go to the florist when he got home to send some flowers.  Nancy had told me the funeral is Sat. at 2 at the funeral home in Augusta.  We went over to Farm Fresh and I was surprised at how much funeral arrangements cost.  Guy said not to worry about the cost. 
     I sent sympathy cards to Vivian's parents.  I had to call Nancy to check on their address.  I used my whole name on their card so hopefully they'll remember who I am.
     Nancy said she sent flowers from the class.  I asked if she needed help paying for that.  She said she'd talked to Eva Rose - there was money left over from our reunion. 
     It's just so sad to think that someone you know is ok one minute and gone the next.  And leaving two children behind that her husband will have to raise alone now.  I think of the fun times we had in high school.  And when I played the piano at their wedding, I started playing the final march when they started kissing instead of waiting til they started walking down the aisle.  It's just so sad to think she's gone.  I hope she didn't feel all the pain she was in.  And I hope that guy gets the book thrown at him.
     I didn't sleep well last night.  I was having a bad dream & it seemed to continue every time I went back to sleep.  I couldn't get to sleep again after Guy left.  Mon. & Tues. it was because Chief yapped.  Yesterday it was because Chief knocked over the end table.  This morning it was the dream.  Every morning I didn't get back to sleep til 7 then slept til 10.  But I can't do that tomorrow cause they're supposed to come do the termite inspection anywhere from 8-noon tomorrow.
     Guy's supposed to be finished with his school at 10 in the morning.  He wants to go to a movie tomorrow aft. then we have the Singles fellowship here tomorrow night.  So I'm going to be a tired puppy tomorrow unless I can sleep good tonight.

"I should've kept my mouth shut."

Mon. Sept. 17, 1990

     Carole was at church last night & I asked her about my losing 2 lbs.  She said it's not uncommon to lose a little in the beginning but to try not to loose too much.  She said to eat milkshakes with a raw egg mixed in - that you can't taste the egg.  Guy said he'll get me some ice cream.  He'd already mentioned making me milkshakes.
     Chief woke me up this morning right after Guy turned off the shower.  I was still awake when he came out so I went downstairs.  He fixed me a piece of cinnamon toast.  After he left I read a little while & went back to sleep.  While he was fixing the toast I laid down on the couch & covered all up so Chief couldn't get to me.  But he came and started scratching and pulling on the afghan.  I started hollering but he wouldn't stop so I started to holler for Guy but I started crying & couldn't hardly talk so I didn't think he'd hear me so I was crying more.  But he did hear me & came & spanked Chief & made him go to his room.  He asked what he did & I told him he'd scratched my nose.  He said it only looked like a little red spot & I said it was through the afghan so it wasn't too bad, but I couldn't get him to stop.  I'm really not sure why I was crying cause it didn't really hurt that much.
     Anyway, I was only awake about an hour but I'd been up til almost 11:30 watching the Emmys.  I didn't wake up til about 9:15.  I didn't hear Chief til I had to open the door to go get my nebulizer.  He did ok once I got downstairs.  He kept wanting to go outside & I could tell he needed to poop but he never would til the 3rd time.  It's a lot cooler today so I had to get my sweater to go out with him.  I spent the rest of the morning through part of my story working on my family letter.  For awhile he laid down by me & slept.  When I went to get sandwich meat for lunch, it had started turning so that turned my appetite off.  Later I defrosted a weiner & had that & some chips.  I'd taken an orange out but never got around to eating it.  I don't know if that's why I developed a headache or not.  But I first noticed it after I finished my letter & ate and sat down to watch my story.  It kind of came & went.  I put Chief up when it was over and came up to take a shower.  Guy said for me to be ready at 3:00 so we could go straight to the library to return out books cause he'd have a lot of homework to do.  I didn't notice my headache again til I got out of the shower.  Guy got home about 10 til 3, just as I was putting my shoes on.  We went to look for another book I wanted before but they still didn't have it.  I rechecked one on nutrition.
     By the time we got home my headache was worse & steady.  Guy took Chief for a walk & I started to lay down but decided to do books instead.  My headached didn't bother me while I was doing that but started again after I finished.  I laid down on the couch & Guy started his homework.  The TV was bothering me but Guy wanted it on so I thought if I just laid still long enough it would go away.  Chief was chewing one of his sticks over by Guy & I told him to warn me if he headed my way.  I guess I laid there for almost 1 & 1/2 hours.  I don't think I really slept cause I heard the TV the whole time.  Then all of a sudden Chief jumped on me & it scared me so bad.  I jumped, I guess it took my breath away.  Guy said he hadn't even heard Chief get up.  He had asked me earlier if I wanted to take something. I told him I'd like to get by without having to.  I don't know if it had gone away but it was definitely back after Chief scared me.  I asked Guy to get me some Tylenol.  He asked why didn't I go upstairs. I said I didn't think I could make it up the stairs & hoped I could just lay still & it would go away.  He said I needed quiet instead of the TV going.  I came up here at 6:30 & he said he'd get me up in about an hour for supper.  I didn't go to sleep but my head did feel better when he came for me.  I just took it easy the rest of the evening.  My head hasn't bothered me any more.  Guy said it was probably because I didn't eat enough today.  I said I ate just as little a couple of days last week & didn't get a headache.  It's funny though - just yesterday I mentioned that I haven't been getting headaches like last time.  I should've kept my mouth shut.  Hopefully I can sleep through the night & Chief (or Guy) won't wake me up in the morning.