"Tomorrow will be the only normal day we'll have this week"

                                                                                                                         Sunday, October 21, 1990             

     Last week was mostly uneventful.  I had tried the previous week taking Chief out in the back yard on his leash, trying to teach him to sit.  It went ok for a very short time - til he realized I had a pocket full of treats.  Then he just kept jumping on me trying to get those.  I tried it inside the house one day with the same results.  Then I tried it another day without the treats but he still thought I had them.  So I've decided he needs to have real obedience lessons.  I told Guy that but I don't think he took me seriously.  If he doesn't want to pay for it I'll take the money from my own savings.  But I think we'll wait til after he gets fixed.  He'll be old enough next month.  I asked about it when I went to get his refills Friday.  They said he wouldn't need any exam beforehand.  Just call & let them know when we wanted it done.  We'd bring him in on a Tues., Wed., or Thu. afternoon and he'd have to stay two nights.  I told Guy I hate to think of Chief being there all alone & so scared cause he wouldn't know or understand what's going on.  As much as I hate him sometimes, I can't bear to think of him being hurt or all alone like that.  It makes me cry.  But I know it has to be done. 

     Meanwhile, I think the nausea is gone but sometimes I still don't have much of an appetite.  I gained one lb. last week but lost one yesterday.  We see what my official weight is at the OB's tomorrow.

     Either Tues. or Wed. I was laying on the couch watching TV in the aft. & started seeing spots.  When I'd look at something there was a blank spot just to the right of center.  It lasted about an hour & I had a slight headache afterwards.  That's happened before but not for awhile and it wouldn't bother me now if it weren't for the fact I'm pregnant and that for the past two weeks (at least) my eyes have been kind of bloodshot, especially one place on my left eye.  But it didn't really worry me til it happened again on Fri.  It was different this time.  It started while I was at the vet's getting Chief's refills.  I thought maybe it was from the sun reflecting off another car or something but it was worse by the time I got home.  It didn't affect my driving thank goodness.  I could see it when I closed my eyes, like you see spots from a camera flash, but only in the left eyelid.  And this time it had a specific shape.  With the dot representing the point I'm looking at, it looked like this: (she drew a little picture in) curved with one end raggedy.  I laid down til Guy got home and it was better by then.  But it kind of came & went the rest of the night.  It didn't bother me too much when we went out to eat.  Guy said he wanted seafood but neither of us wanted to cook so we went to Red Lobster.  It was very good!  I ate more than I have in awhile but by the time we got home I felt stuffed.  But it was good!  And I still had enough left for both of our suppers last night. 

     Lori called last night.  We'd scheduled this time for her to call if she didn't hear from me by then, just to check & see how I was doing.  I was worried about her too.  She'd told me she'd felt a lump in the side of her breast.  The dr. told her to try cutting out caffeine to see if it would go down.  She's done that for 3 wks. and it hasn't made any difference so she'll be calling him back tomorrow to see what he wants to do next.  I hope it's not bad.
     My OB appt. is tomorrow morning.  When I made the appt. I told them I didn't care what time because I really didn't think I'd make it til then.  But I have and now I have to be there at 10:10 in the morning.  Oh well, I do have a list of things to discuss with him, especially my eyes.
     I didn't go to church today at all.  Deanna had called Tues. to tell us that the fumes from the glue they're using to install the carpeting in the classrooms was overpowering.  Friday she said it was still pretty bad.  So Guy said for me to stay home this morning & he'd see how it was.  He said it wasn't too bad in the auditorium cause they had the fans going but everywhere else was awful.  So he didn't let me go tonight either.
     This coming week will be rough.  He has a security duty exercise from midnight Tues. til noon Fri. He'll be home from noon-8 pm each day but I don't like the idea of being home alone overnight.  Then he has duty on Sat. & Sun.  He's not supposed to have any watches but he'll probably have to work til noon both days.  So tomorrow will be the only normal day we'll have this week.