"I'm afraid people are going to start suspecting...I'm pregnant..."

Sunday, Sept. 23, 1990

     I didn't get to sleep late Friday because I had to be up for the termite man to come.  They said he'd be here sometime between 8-noon.  I got up at 7 I think.  But I had already gotten up & eaten with Guy.  I made the cake for the Singles Fellowship & cleaned house a little then rested.  Guy got home around 10:30.  We called to find out about the movies & none of them started til 2:00.  So I worked on my stuff for Young Light.  I thought Guy would finish cleaning but he waited til we got back.  We saw Presumed Innocent.  It was pretty good but I got a little confused sometimes.
     We had to fix the vegetables & finish the cake when we got back.  Guy fixed me a hot dog while I took a quick shower.  Then he took a shower while I was eating.  We had everything ready by the time people started arriving.  There were about 10 Singles here.  Linda Pugh had planned to come but had told Mary to let us know she wouldn't be here.  Mark had just informed her that the speaker for the men's retreat was going to be spending the night with them Sat. & she needed to clean house.  Plus being tired from teaching all week (her 3rd week).  Everyone enjoyed themselves I think.  Susan Richardson had sent the tape of the A.F. Dinner & that was fun to watch.  They all left by 10:30, which surprised me.
     I took it easy yesterday, letting Guy go to the grocery store without me.  I stayed in bed a lot of the time.  First I read the paper then took a nap.  I had intended (& had asked Guy) to have a devotional at 3:00, when they'd be having Vivian's funeral.  But I was asleep & Guy didn't wake me up til 4:00.  He has mentioned it in our prayers since we found out though.
     Daddy called last night to tell me about it.  I figured he would eventually.  I didn't think he'd realize who she was, that she was a friend of mine, but I figured Linda Thompson (preacher's wife) would say something to him cause she worked with her & knew we were friends.
     He did surprise me when he said he was thinking about coming to see us.  I've always wished he could come out here but now that he says he might, I'm afraid for him to.  He'd have to change planes and I'm scared he'd get lost at the airport, especially if it's Atlanta.  He said he was going to check the rates but he'd leave it up to us when to come so he wouldn't interfere with our schedule.  I don't know, it's a little hard to picture him actually coming out here.  Maybe if Judy could come with him I'd feel better.  But she probably couldn't afford it.  I'll mention it to her in the next letter.
     I've been tired all day today.  It started with Chief waking us up at 5:00.  Guy let him out & he pooped.  Not too long after, he started yapping.  Guy went down & found the problem, he'd wet in his room.  So he cleaned it up & put him back in.  He was quiet then but I don't think either of us got back to sleep.  He started whining while Guy was in the shower.  So I was plenty ready for a nap this afternoon.
     In fact, I was ready during class this morning.  I'm afraid people are going to start suspecting cause I'm doing the things I did last time I was pregnant: leaning my head on Guy's shoulder, drinking juice during church, & sitting down in the middle of songs.  Guy said Deanna asked him this morning if he was doing more cooking now.  I said 'what made her ask that?' & he said she probably thinks I'm sick.  She was sitting right behind us in class this morning.  It still seems stranged to me that she asked.
     I slept a little fitfully this aft.  I think I was coughing a lot.  When I got up it felt like I couldn't catch my breath enough.  Guy said I should stay home tonight & I didn't argue.  I've stayed upstairs cross-stitching most of the time til my tailbone got numb & I decided to write some.  Guy should be home within the next half hour.
     I forgot to mention how Chief did Fri. night.  We planned to leave him in his cage the whole time but he put up such a fuss Guy put him outside.  That wasn't any better & I couldn't stand it so I told Guy I'd hold him in my lap the whole time.  We ended up taking turns holding him & he did ok for awhile.  Then he started getting restless.  But instead of being scared of everyone this time, he wanted to check everyone out.  No one seemed to object so we let him go around while Guy was making announcements.  When we started putting the food out I thought Guy was watching him & I guess he thought I was.  Deanna came & said Chief peed on her foot.  So Guy took him outside and got Deanna a rag to wash her foot.  He went in his cage after that & did ok for awhile, while we were watching the tape.  He slept for a little bit I think.  But eventually Guy took him outside & let him stay out of his room after that.  So except for getting Deanna he did pretty good.  At least it was better than last time