"...it was a bit alarming to me when I weighed yesterday & discovered I've lost 2 lbs. since last week."

Sunday, September 16, 1990

     I kind of feel like I've been going downhill since we saw the dr. last week.  Every day it seems like I'm more & more tired.  I didn't go out at all on out usual Saturday errands.  Guy ran the errands and did the housework and took care of the meals too.  I spent most of the day either in bed or on the couch.  So I should have gotten plenty of rest.  It didn't seem to last very long.  I even took a nap for about 2 hrs.  I guess the worst part is eating.  Most of the time, nothing appeals to me.  And the longer I do eat something the worse I  feel.  I just feel like I'm stuffed up to my throat and can't swallow another bite.  It does help somewhat when I don't have to prepare it myself.  But sometimes it's the food itself.  Like last night we had leftovers of taco pie and mixed veg. casserole.  I couldn't stand to even try the casserole & had to make myself eat half the taco pie.  The only thing I finished was my tomatoes.  Then a few minutes later I decided I wanted some cereal - Nut & Honey Crunch.  He said that proved that I wasn't really full but just had had enough of whatever I was eating.  I guess that's right.  Some foods don't sound or taste good at all, some taste good at first & then I can't eat too much, and some don't bother me at all.  But the only thing I can think of right now that doesn't bother me at all is Cheerios.
     And it was a bit alarming to me when I weighed yesterday & discovered I've lost 2 lbs. since last week.  That does worry me.  Guy said we'll try to make up for them this week.  He's going to get some ice cream to make me milk shakes.
     Like I said, it's a little easier when I don't have to fix it myself.  It's just so hard to fix breakfast in the morning and even worse when I start thinking about what to fix for lunch.  I know it was like this last time but I don't remember it being this bad or if it was still like this up until when I  lost the baby.  I just hope I can get over it soon.