"I should've kept my mouth shut."

Mon. Sept. 17, 1990

     Carole was at church last night & I asked her about my losing 2 lbs.  She said it's not uncommon to lose a little in the beginning but to try not to loose too much.  She said to eat milkshakes with a raw egg mixed in - that you can't taste the egg.  Guy said he'll get me some ice cream.  He'd already mentioned making me milkshakes.
     Chief woke me up this morning right after Guy turned off the shower.  I was still awake when he came out so I went downstairs.  He fixed me a piece of cinnamon toast.  After he left I read a little while & went back to sleep.  While he was fixing the toast I laid down on the couch & covered all up so Chief couldn't get to me.  But he came and started scratching and pulling on the afghan.  I started hollering but he wouldn't stop so I started to holler for Guy but I started crying & couldn't hardly talk so I didn't think he'd hear me so I was crying more.  But he did hear me & came & spanked Chief & made him go to his room.  He asked what he did & I told him he'd scratched my nose.  He said it only looked like a little red spot & I said it was through the afghan so it wasn't too bad, but I couldn't get him to stop.  I'm really not sure why I was crying cause it didn't really hurt that much.
     Anyway, I was only awake about an hour but I'd been up til almost 11:30 watching the Emmys.  I didn't wake up til about 9:15.  I didn't hear Chief til I had to open the door to go get my nebulizer.  He did ok once I got downstairs.  He kept wanting to go outside & I could tell he needed to poop but he never would til the 3rd time.  It's a lot cooler today so I had to get my sweater to go out with him.  I spent the rest of the morning through part of my story working on my family letter.  For awhile he laid down by me & slept.  When I went to get sandwich meat for lunch, it had started turning so that turned my appetite off.  Later I defrosted a weiner & had that & some chips.  I'd taken an orange out but never got around to eating it.  I don't know if that's why I developed a headache or not.  But I first noticed it after I finished my letter & ate and sat down to watch my story.  It kind of came & went.  I put Chief up when it was over and came up to take a shower.  Guy said for me to be ready at 3:00 so we could go straight to the library to return out books cause he'd have a lot of homework to do.  I didn't notice my headache again til I got out of the shower.  Guy got home about 10 til 3, just as I was putting my shoes on.  We went to look for another book I wanted before but they still didn't have it.  I rechecked one on nutrition.
     By the time we got home my headache was worse & steady.  Guy took Chief for a walk & I started to lay down but decided to do books instead.  My headached didn't bother me while I was doing that but started again after I finished.  I laid down on the couch & Guy started his homework.  The TV was bothering me but Guy wanted it on so I thought if I just laid still long enough it would go away.  Chief was chewing one of his sticks over by Guy & I told him to warn me if he headed my way.  I guess I laid there for almost 1 & 1/2 hours.  I don't think I really slept cause I heard the TV the whole time.  Then all of a sudden Chief jumped on me & it scared me so bad.  I jumped, I guess it took my breath away.  Guy said he hadn't even heard Chief get up.  He had asked me earlier if I wanted to take something. I told him I'd like to get by without having to.  I don't know if it had gone away but it was definitely back after Chief scared me.  I asked Guy to get me some Tylenol.  He asked why didn't I go upstairs. I said I didn't think I could make it up the stairs & hoped I could just lay still & it would go away.  He said I needed quiet instead of the TV going.  I came up here at 6:30 & he said he'd get me up in about an hour for supper.  I didn't go to sleep but my head did feel better when he came for me.  I just took it easy the rest of the evening.  My head hasn't bothered me any more.  Guy said it was probably because I didn't eat enough today.  I said I ate just as little a couple of days last week & didn't get a headache.  It's funny though - just yesterday I mentioned that I haven't been getting headaches like last time.  I should've kept my mouth shut.  Hopefully I can sleep through the night & Chief (or Guy) won't wake me up in the morning.