"I was so mad!"

Sunday, July 12, 1992

     Ez. woke up even before we got to bed. I went in and checked her & told her to lay down & go to sleep and left. She was quiet for about 10 minutes then started crying again. I let her cry awhile then Guy came up from taking care of Chief & asked if I wanted him to go in. I said maybe & he went in. She stopped crying immediately & I figured he'd be back in a minute. He kept staying & staying and I finally went to see if she'd pooped since I checked her and he was walking her! I was so mad! He stayed in there & walked her til she went to sleep. I thought we had an agreement that we weren't going to rock or walk her completely to sleep any more. He said later he just couldn't help it. He was probably thinking about having to leave and not being able to hold her for awhile. I thought he had more willpower than me. The other night he said he'd listen to her cry all night if he had to. If I can keep my resolve not to pick her up & walk rock her overnight, maybe she'll get out of the habit by the time he gets back. But the first time he puts her to bed she'll probably get back to her old ways. Maybe we need to do it together. Maybe I'll suggest that when he gets back.

     I don't know how she could know what's going on but it seems like she's been more attached to him all weekend. He was ushering today too. She saw him looking in the door window once & got all excited, then upset when he disappeared.