"Anyway, it hasn't been that great a day for me."

Saturday, February 22, 1992

     Since it's Saturday, Ez. woke up early – a little after 7:00. Guess who got up with her! I sure wish I could sleep through noise like Guy does. The times he did get up with her when he was on leave so I could sleep late, I woke up anyway cause I almost always hear her before he does. He'll probably want tomorrow afternoon too. I'll never get to sleep late again.

     We spent most of the day cleaning house. I'd hoped we'd get done in time to go to the mall for a little while. Ha! I don't know why Guy takes his time when he's cleaning. I'd rather get it over & done with & he just takes his time – when he even gets started. I was up here getting things out of the way so he could dust & vacuum, assuming he was busy downstairs. When I went down there he was laid back on the couch watching TV! I've been grumpy all day but that just about made me blow my top. I didn't really holler at him but he knew I was mad. I made a point later about thanking him for helping clean house today. (He cleaned the shower curtain too.) I told him that it seemed like no matter how much we accomplish I still feel like there's so much more that still needs to be done. He asked like what & I said all the stuff on the list. He just made a funny noise & walked off. Well, at least the house is clean. It doesn't look like it cause it's so junky. I just don't know where to put all the stuff we've got. I packed most of my bunnies but there are still quite a few out. I'm thinking about just packing them all up so we don't have to worry about dusting them. Guy rearranged them when he dusted but I don't know why he won't admit it. Sometimes it seems like he does things to annoy me on purpose.

     We tried feeding Ez. lunch from a little suction bowl we got at Farm Fresh. It wasn't a good idea. She just wanted to stick her hands in it then sling it around. We need to just give her things she can eat with her hands. She's not ready to learn how to eat with a spoon.

     She didn't take good naps today, probably because we were moving around so much. She got her bath on time though. She was rolling all over the floor in our room afterwards, laying down and sitting herself up over & over again. She's really gotten good at that. When we went back downstairs Guy went out to watch COPS while I started working on making stuff for the congregational fellowship tomorrow – carrot cake & potato salad. I was trying to watch the exhibition skating of the Olympic winners but that was hard to do. Once I got the cake in the oven I started peeling potatoes. Ez. was getting fussy. Guy had already given her a bottle. I told Guy I'd take her after I finished the potato I was working on. He said he could put her to bed & I said he's miss COPS. He said he could miss a few minutes of it. I said ok. A few minutes later he got up but instead of taking her up he just walked around with her, still watching TV. When I finally finished the potatoes & got them on the stove, I went to get her & told him what timers were for what & he said ok. I was halfway down the hall & asked if he wanted to say goodnight & he just hollered it from the couch. Sometimes I think his priorities are 1) TV 2) Elizabeth 3) me.

     It didn't take long to get her to bed. I took the monitor back down with me & it didn't take too long for her to go to sleep. After his precious show was over he came & helped me fix the potato salad. Then he loaded the dishwasher and started it. I asked if that could wait a little but he started it anyway. Then he went out to watch TV again – I don't know what – while I was stuck in the kitchen, waiting for the cake to finish, then for it to cool off enough to take it out of the pan, trying to watch the skating on the tiny black & white TV, with the dishwasher roaring in my ear. After I turned the cake out I told him I was coming upstairs. I watched the skating (& some skiing) while I was under the hair dryer, using the earphone for the TV. I should've written this while the skiing was on but I didn't feel like getting up to get the notebook. To dry my hair I have to sit in the floor by the closets with the TV pillow. I need to figure out an easier way but all the outlets are blocked.

     Anyway, it hasn't been that great a day for me. Like I said, no matter how much we get done, we're never going to get caught up.