"Hopefully, the truth will be known one day."

Thursday, Feb. 6, 1992

     Barb Leland kept Ez. this afternoon while we went to see JFK. I'm not sure if I liked it or not. It sure raised a lot of questions about his death. Sometimes it was hard to tell the difference between the real pictures and the actors recreating events. The papers from the Warren Commission are supposed to be sealed until the year 2029. But I wonder how is anyone going to be able to tell by then if what those papers say is true or not. Even now, so many people that were involved or were witnesses  are already dead. It's scary to think that there could be such a big operation with so many people involved and it be so well organized that it wasn't found out and still hasn't really been proven. The more I think about it, the more it bothers me. Hopefully, the truth will be known one day.

     Yesterday we planned to go to the commissary as soon as Ez. finished her morning nap. She slept for 2 & 1/2 hrs! We went ahead & fed her & ate ourselves before going. She got tired & a little fussy before we were done but she didn't go to sleep when Guy started carrying her like she usually does. So she was a tired baby last night. She woke up around 1:15. She was up at the top of the crib, sideways & her pacifier was under the rocker. I got her settled back in & she fussed again in a few minutes. I just had to put the pacifier back in her mouth. Didn't hear her again til 7:50 this morning. Since it's Guy's last day off I got up with her & let him sleep. He was up by 8:30 though.

     I think having Guy home so much has gotten Ez. really attached to him. When I have her & he's around she seems to be always looking for him unless I keep her occupied with a book or something. I thought it would be a nice break for me and would be nice for him to have so much time with her & taking care of her so much. But it seems like she just doesn't want anything to do with me any more. Guy said when he's gone to work and she doesn't see him she'll be ok and not seeing him in another room, not paying attention to her and making her fussy. 

     She fought taking a nap this morning. Guy was going to put her down while I took my shower but she still wasn't asleep by the time I was done so he let me take over so he could take a shower. I finally called to him to go get juice for her but he didn't hear me. He was watching TV instead of taking a shower. But it seemed like me saying his name, or maybe the tone or volume change in my voice seemed to calm her down all of a sudden and she started drifting off. She was kind of under my chin & when it felt like she was asleep I tried shifting her to lay down in my arms & she started fussing. I stood up to sway her and she started to go to sleep again and Guy came in to see if I wanted him to get a bottle of juice for her. I told him that's why I was calling him earlier but I didn't think she needed it now. He said he hadn't heard me. Even though we were whispering she started stirring and when she saw him she started trying to sit up to see him. He went ahead & got the bottle & I sat & rocked her & gave it to her. It took about 10 minutes to get to sleep & she didn't finish the bottle. I don't think she even slept for 30 minutes.

     Barb said she only slept for 45 min. this afternoon. She was pretty grumpy most of the evening. Guy gave her her bath then started her bottle while I finished up the meat I was working on for the freezer. When I came to a stopping point I gave her her bottle and Guy did the rest of the meat. Except she didn't want any more of her bottle til Guy was done and came & sat down with us. He ended up putting her to bed. Hopefully she'll sleep good tonight. Guy moved her mattress down two notches even though I said to move it down one when he asked me. I told him after last night that it was too low & he said he'd move it back up one but I don't think he did yet.

     There are so many things I thought we'd get done around the house while he was off. I don't know where all the time went. At least we got the living room rearranged. I don't really like it this way but we have to make it safe for Elizabeth. I really am dreading him being on a ship again. It'll probably be rough because this woman captain probably tries to prove she's tough enough. Guy's heard she hates radiomen. I hope he doesn't get off on the wrong foot with her just because of that. I guess we'll just have to wait & see. At least we know when he's through with this ship, he's through with the Navy!