"There's always the possibility of something going wrong at any time, even after delivery."

Sat., April 6, 1991 -  a.m.

     I tried pushing around my tummy last night and the baby moved around some but not a whole lot.  She's been moving around more this morning, about like usual.  But I guess I'm more worried because yesterday Ann asked us if it bothered or scared us to think about what happened with Cathy Rudolph's baby. (Her baby apparently died when she dropped & the cord got compressed.)  I had thought of it before but I guess I'm thinking more of it the closer we get to the end.  There's always the possibility of something going wrong at any time, even after delivery.

     I'd planned to go to the shower Linda Pugh was having for Jeri Adams.  But I just didn't sleep well last night.  We went to bed at 11:00 and I woke up at 1:15 & couldn't go back to sleep.  My head was kind of hurting so when Guy stirred about 2:45 I asked him to get me some Tylenol.  I went back to sleep after 3:00 but kept waking up & my head still hurting.  Finally around 7:00 I got up and took some more Tylenol & while I was up I went to the bathroom.  The flushing apparently woke Chief up cause he started whining.  Guy went to let him out & seemed to be gone a long time.  I heard Chief still whining so I went to see what was wrong.  He had wet in the kitchen floor.  Guy was mopping it up with vinegar water while Chief was still outside.  He said it was a pretty big puddle, all across from the freezer to the sink.  I'm glad we've been keeping the gate on the kitchen door again.  We figured stuff like this would happen after the baby comes but don't understand why it's happening now.  I just hope it doesn't get any worse.  I don't know if I wrote about the morning he got a Ziploc bag out of the kitchen trash & ripped it to shreds.  It had had sandwich meat in it & was probably in the paper sack in front of the trash can.  That same day I left him loose with the dining room blocked while I was at a dr. appt.  When I came home he had taken some Kleenex & candy wrappers out of the living room trash & ripped them up all over the floor.  Another day I discovered he'd been pulling pieces off of the car seat box which is sitting by the stereo.  Guy keeps threatening to make him an outdoor dog but I think that would be like starting all over again.  Yesterday after I got home from the support group he kept wanting in & out.  I finally just left him out there, putting up with his scratching & whining.  Finally he started going away from the door for a few seconds at a time so I got up to watch him.  About the third time he went away he started sniffing around & then peed.  As soon as he was done I opened the door & let him in.  He wanted to play so I played with him for just a little bit before going upstairs.  I left him loose cause he'd gotten comfortable in his chair and didn't find any messes when I came back down.

     I worked in the front bedroom for a little bit, mainly putting the shelf liner in the baby's chest drawers.  I left them all open cause the paper's vinyl & had a smell to it.  After that I took a nap from about 4:00-5:30.  Guy called about 5:45 to say he was on his way home.  I heated up the leftover tuna helper & had the salads done by the time he got home.  After supper we watched tapes & caught up a little.