"I'm so afraid he's going to be like Mom."

Thursday, August 13, 1992

     We may be getting new neighbors sooner than I expected. I thought I heard something next door when I was getting Ez. into her pjs & I looked outside and saw a minivan & a car. It might just be more repairs or cleaners but I kind of doubt it at this hour. If it is the new tenants they'll probably have the moving van here in the morning. It's weird, when I was watching for the mailman this afternoon I was thinking, 'I hope the new neighbors don't have a mini van cause it'll block the view of the mailboxes.'

     Ez. woke up at 7:03 this morning. I checked her diaper & thought I saw poop but when I changed her she was only wet. I put her back in bed & gave her a couple of books & she was quiet for awhile. I don't know if she went back to sleep or not but I never really did. We got up about 10 to 8:00. She took a nap about 10:30 til 12:23. I spent the time ironing, embroidering, & started on the outfit I already had cut out for her. One thing about kids' clothes, the smaller size means shorter seams so they're a little faster to do (but I didn't finish it).

     It was around 3 or 3:15 when she went down for a nap. I was just getting drowsy from reading when she started crying about 35–40 minutes later. I don't know if she went to sleep or not. Probably not cause she was pretty grumpy tonight. So she went to bed right at 8:00.

     Now about Sue's letter. They gave Cookie 2 to Doc to breed. They still have 3 of the puppies. Apparently Ken has a new girlfriend from near Austin and while he was visiting her they came up to visit Sue & Harold. They spent a couple of nights at the lake too. I have no idea when or how Ken met this girl—her name's Regina. These are the two main things she talked about.

     There was .9" in our rain gauge this morning. It's been raining off & on this aft. We had to wait til later than usual to get the mail. It was sprinkling when I took the trash out after supper. I tried to get Ez. to look out the kitchen window but when she heard me open the door she came to it instead. When we first went to the mailbox I saw him down the street so we came back to wait on the porch for him but it started raining. I reached my hand out then held Ez's hand out to see if she could feel it. It was just kinda sprinkling so I stepped off the porch for just a little bit to see what she'd do (holding her). She held her arm out then tried to rub the water off then held her arm out again.

     I couldn't get her to take any steps today. I tried 3-4 times.

     I hope it stops raining long enough for Chief to go out before bedtime. He hasn't been out since late this aft. I hope it doesn't rain all day tomorrow. I'm planning to run errands in the morning.

     [Later]

     I finally got to let Chief out about 9:15. It was sprinkling a little so I had to go out with him.

     I've been sewing on Ez's dress some more. Daddy called at 10:23 for about 10 minutes. He said he's been keeping a diary in a notebook and it's full now. He's planning to send it to Kenneth for him to read & send on to Judy, then Sue, & then to me to keep. If Judy gets it I'll probably never see it. I can't believe she still hasn't sent me my Avon. It's been over 4 months since I ordered it I think. Anyway, Daddy said he's been feeling good, not having to take any medicine and not having a lot of headaches. I don't remember him ever saying anything about having a problem with headaches. He was talking about us moving in with him & how we could clean out the storage shed for your shop. I told him we might end up living in Search. He said that would be a good place to live and have a shop. He asked 2-3 times how much longer you have til retirement. He also asked if we'd have a lot of stuff to move when we move back & I said yes & he said he might have to put some stuff in storage.

     I'm so afraid he's going to be like Mom. It seems like he's getting it in his head that we're going to live with him permanently.

     He was asking about Ez. talking & walking so I updated him on that. He's really looking forward to being able to talk to her & her talking back. I hope he'll be ok long enough for that to happen & for her to remember him better than I remember Papa.