"Sometimes it seems like everyone is doing their best to make my life more complicated."

Tuesday, June 9, 1992

     Well, Fri. night went about like I'd predicted. Ez. slept til about 11:30 then didn't sleep for any length of time except when one of us was holding her, until about 4 or 4:30 in the morning. I got maybe 2 hrs of sleep. Her fever only came down gradually but it was finally back to normal by late Sat. aft. & she started perking up instead of being so grumpy. She even climbed up on the couch for the first time. I don't know if I've written that she climbed up in Chief's chair one day last week, whenever Guy's duty night was. Anyway, she does that all the time now. She practises standing & sitting. She's only fallen once—through the side, bottom first. Chief's not too pleased with this new development so I try not to let her do it too much when he's around.

     Anyway, Guy had duty Sun. & I stayed home with Ez. just to be sure she was ok and in case she was still contagious. I can't remember now what time she woke up, I just remember I went back to bed when she went down for a nap and Guy called & woke me up. I checked her temp. 2-3 times Sun. & it was normal so she didn't have any more Tylenol. She slept ok Sun. night except for every once in awhile she kind of moaned. The first couple of times, I checked on her & she was still asleep. I'm not sure what it was all about.

     She had a rough time going to sleep last night. Sometimes it seems like the night after duty nights is harder on her than duty nights. She's so glad to have Guy home again that she doesn't want to let him go at all, especially when he's the one putting her to bed. Last night she cried & cried. He went back a couple of times & she'd go to sleep until he put her down. Finally I went in cause I could tell he was getting frustrated. She was standing up and kind of gasping between crying and she was shaking all over. Her legs felt cold. I checked her diaper then rocked her & talked to her a little bit. I got up when she started squirming around & swayed her a little bit. She was almost asleep but as soon as she felt me moving to lay her down, she started fussing. So I swayed her a little bit longer & talked to her a little bit & laid her down. She started to fuss but I patted her bottom & whispered to her a little bit. I made sure she had enough pacifiers and a burp rag & Snuggle Bunny. She looked at me when I was going out the door and I went kissy & left & thank goodness she went on to sleep.

     Tonight was my turn to put her to bed. I read her a couple of books first & she was really drowsy when I was singing. She started squirming so I laid her down. She started crying & tried to get up. As soon as she stood up I laid her back down & when she tried to get up I puller her feet down so she couldn't get up on her knees & started patting her bottom. I made sure she had all her stuff & told her to go to sleep—"good night & sweet dreams" and blew her a kiss as I went out the door. She started crying but I decided to give her 10 minutes. The crying very gradually got less but it lasted for almost 20 minutes. I did check on her twice but she was laying down both times and didn't see me so I didn't go in. So far, so good.

     She did have a rough day today though. Guy had the day off to go with me to PNH. It was my first appt. with my new pulmonary dr., Dr. O'Neil. It was at 1:00 but we had to go to Boone to get my records so we left at 11:30. Ez. woke up at 7:30 but wouldn't go down for a nap til nearly 10:00 so she didn't get much of a nap. It was nearly 2:00 before we saw the dr. & she was getting fussy by then. We'd taken a little bit for her to eat but not really enough cause we figured we'd be to McDonald's by 1:30. We'd seen the dr. come in, apparently from jogging, at 1:10. Then he never came out of his office. At 1:50 I finally went down to the desk & talked to a corpsman. She went down to his office then said he'd call me soon. He said no one had told him I was there and he didn't know he had any apps. That's strange because he's the one I talked to when I called to make the appt. Anyway, he apologized profusely. He seems pretty young—maybe late 20's-early 30's. I guess he's ok. We talked for 20-30 minutes then he listened to my heart & lungs. He didn't say much about that & I can't read his writing.

     We finally got settled in at McD's about 3:00. Guy went down to turn in my new prescription for saline solution and pick up my Tobra. When we got my saline Guy went to get the car cause it was raining. I'd called in the refill for my Pancrease there but you have to go to a different building for refills now. We'd only done it there once before and the building wasn't even there today. We drove around looking for it but didn't even see any signs. So we went back to the hospital & I ran in to the pharmacy to get directions. It's not even on the base. It's at a place called Scott Annex, along the way I go when I take the long way around when I'm by myself. It had a drive thru and the lady couldn't find it. She took my empty bottle & said they'd fill it now if we'd wait there. Then a man came and said they didn't have enough, did I want what they had & I said yes. He told us to park & come inside. Guy was still upset from the dr. & not being able to find this place and that really set him off. He wouldn't let me go in; he went in & I think he told them off. I was afraid to ask. At least Ez. was asleep by the time we left the hospital base. She slept til we were almost home.

     We got a notice today that our wills are ready to sign. The catch is, you have to call at 8:00 on a Mon. to make an appt. for a week from Friday! And they only have apps. from 8:30-1:30. I don't know why the Navy has to make everything so complicated.

     Oh, we got a notice Sat. that our homeowners insurance was going to be cancelled 6/21 cause it hadn't been paid by the mortgage co. We called the mort. co. & left a message on their "voice mailbox?" When I didn't hear back from them by 10:00 I called them again. They have an 800 number. They said the payment was sent on 6/4 (the notice was dated 6/3) and it was late because the bill was late. So I called Mr. Owens, the ins. agent, & he basically said not to worry about it. The notice said we'd get a notification of reinstatement if payment was received by 6/21 so if we don't get that by next week I may try calling the main office myself instead of going through Mr. Owens. Sometimes it seems like everyone is doing their best to make my life more complicated.

     Oh, I think Ez. said mama tonight. She was on the entry while we were getting supper ready. I was checking on her & she was saying yaya over & over & all of a sudden she was saying mama. I called Guy but he didn't hear me before she stopped saying it. And she didn't say it again all night.

     Yesterday was the due date for the first baby. It would've been two. I waited to see if Guy would mention it. He never did. I finally brought it up while we were fixing supper. I just asked said I'd waited to see if he'd say something but since he didn't did he know what yesterday was. It took him a little bit to figure it out but at least he did remember. I don't think of it as often as I used to but I don't think he thinks of it nearly as often as I do.