Tuesday, March 13, 2012

"...this whole experience is going to change our lives forever."

Saturday, Feb. 23, 1991 (Part 2)
     Guy also had Monday off.  We went to Pembroke Mall & saw Dances With Wolves.  It was pretty good.  There were the expected gory scenes but I just looked away as usual.  I knew it was a long movie so I took a pillow with me to use when I got uncomfortable.  It was the one Lori made me in college.  Just the right size & it helped a lot.  I was surprised that I didn't have to get up in the middle of the movie to go to the bathroom.  I went right before it started and only drank part of a small soda.  But I was ready to go when it was over.  The line was too long in the theater so we went around the other side of the mall to the mall restrooms - no lines.  But I was tired by the time we looked around a little.  We went in Upton's looking for maternity clothes but they didn't have any.  I need to get some more hose and another nursing bra or two.
     Dianna called around 5:30 yesterday to tell me that Mercedes has lost the baby.  Glenn had called her from the hospital.  She didn't have any details except that the baby had died and they were giving her something to put her into labor to deliver it.  I plan to take a card to Glenn tomorrow and put Ann's name and number in it for them.  He told Dianna they don't want any calls or visits.  I hope they're open to going to the support group.
     I called Kathy last night to tell her about Mercedes.  She said she'd send a card.  She's been saving some boxes for me from work & said she could bring them over today if that was ok.  I told her as long as it wasn't too early.  She called about 10:30 to see if 11:30 was ok and she & Philip came over.  She'd said we could have her stroller & car seat and asked if we wanted her to bring them over.  I told her that we'd decided to get a new car seat but we would like to look at the stroller.  So she brought it and about half a dozen boxes.  They stayed & visited about an hour.  Chief finally warmed up to them by the time they left.  He played with Philip some.  I don't think I mentioned that Rick is working for Cox Cable as an installer now.  And he quit smoking last fall.  Kathy said he feels better except that he's gained 20 lbs. since then.  She said they're all going on a diet soon.  She looks just the same but Philip's grown some.  
     Back to Chief - Guy was really mad at him this morning.  He pooped on the carpet - twice!  Once by the bookcase & once by my chair in the dining room.  I didn't ever hear him whining last night.  Guy's put the gate up on the kitchen door tonight.  He said it was hard enough poop that it didn't stain the carpet.  I hope it doesn't smell so he'd try it again.  My theory is that it's his food.  He just finished up a bag of dry Cycle food, which took forever because he didn't like it.  I think it just did something to his system and going back to Puppy Chow yesterday, it's cleaning his system out.  Guy's theory is that he's stupid.  He keeps threatening to make him an outdoor dog.
     The past couple of weeks, the baby's movements have been getting stronger.  Sometimes I think I can tell what's her head - it feels like a ball rolling across my tummy.  Guy was really surprised the first time he saw one of her "attacks."  It's usually when I've been in bed & still for a little while.  But she usually quiets down by the time I'm ready to go to sleep.  She usually moves a lot when I first wake up in the morning, while I do my medicine.  Then I just feel her every once in awhile til late aft. when she gets active again.  It's more frequent during the times when I'm still so she usually moves a lot when I'm watching TV in the evening.  It's really fascinating to feel and to watch her moving around.  I think about how tight a space she's in and trying to move so much.  A few times it's hurt when it feels like she's kicking or hitting the top of my cervix or my colon.  Carole had mentioned once that it was painful to get kicked on the cervix so I guess that's normal.  Sometimes she kicks my bladder, making me need to go right away, as if I didn't go all the time anyway!
     Sometimes it's just still hard to believe that this is really happening.  After all these years of hoping and wishing and dreaming (I'd given up on praying) it's just hard to deal with the reality of it sometimes and I wonder am I really ready for this.  Whether or not we get to bring a healthy baby home, this whole experience is going to change our lives forever.
     

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